20111021 Couple Friends

I really want to have couple friends, which means that both of them are not only your and your lovers’ friends but also couples. I first learned this term from the American comedy series many years ago. At first, I didn’t think it’s very important in a relationship because I believed that in a relation everyone should keep his or her own space. Nevertheless, I have started to want couple friends because we couldn’t found couple friends to invite to dinner when celebrating the 5^th anniversary. No couple friend not means lonely dinner but also means that on one can be the bridge when we having fight, which is the most crucial reason for me. However, it’s very difficult for any couples find another couple to become friends because there are many things to be considered, such as personalities, interests, backgrounds. This could even be harder than having a boyfriend or girlfriend because it takes four people involved. Even thought I have a clear check list, I still don’t find anyone yet. Or maybe the check list is the problem?!

Dear Diary 20111018 Noises

  I hate noise, but it unfortunately happened to have one construction site next to me apartment. Now the workers are tearing the old building down, so it makes lots of noises every single day.

  At the first few days, those noises made me scared because they sounded like some terrible monsters are roaring angrily together, and those roars created the waves which might destroy my apartment.( the operation literally did make my apartment jumping ) Those noises also reminded me the night 0n 921. At that night, you can heard some strange sounds in the air, which were followed by some serious quakes that were so big to see the house shaking.

  But now, all I feel about the noise from the operation are angry because they really made me distracted from what I want to do, such as reading, studying or sleeping even. Now, the workers are just tearing the building down, so I can’t imagine how bad it could be when they start to build.

Dear Diary 20111018 Change

   I hope I can keep everything in the same condition, especially something beautiful, like my family, my friends or everything I already have or love. However, it’s impossible to hold them or keep them forever. Things can change enormously at one blink, even people.

  Even though there isn’t any change in my life, lots of things around me changed without my permission. My yoga classmates are all gone when I returned after three weeks break and two of my friends decided to go back to Tainan and moved suddenly.

  At first, I felt very surprised or even sad about their leaving, and then I somehow envied about their changes because they have the courage and the opportunity to chase their dream or make something different. That’s what I can’t achieve now. I know I need to pick u myself, but I think I need time and an opportunity.

【Dear Diary】20111017 Procrastination

  This weekend in Eslite, I found a book whose subject is about the psychology of procrastination. It's very interesting and I believer that there are lots of people will find their lives in it, just like me. 


  It's my first time to know that procrastination is a real psychological problem and  popular subject to study. There are so many reasons to cause procrastination, internal or external, but gene is definitely not one of them. I guess this can explain my mom's question, "why my daughter always do everything at the last minute? it's totally not my style!"


  I am very surprised that there are lots of people like me to have this issue in their lives because all this time I deeply believed that I was just being lazy like my mom always said. I am happy to find that it's a very important issue and there are so many smart people study it. I hope I can find some clues about solving this problem when finishing the book. 

【Dear Diary】20101221 Long time no see

剛搜尋之前的舊東家的地址，卻意外發現自己之前有一搭沒一搭的部落格列在搜尋結果之中，因為太久沒來這邊，乍看到之前所寫的文章，有一種挖出時光盒的錯覺 ，彷彿間隔了20年(有沒有那麼誇張~自己為是浦島太郎?!)

突然覺得之前把這編裝點得那麼漂亮的(厚顏無恥的自賣自誇)，怎麼沒有繼續寫下去呢?(謎之音：因為就是懶啊!~)

anyway, 就看看之後會產出什麼好了!? (怎麼有種又要為之後的偷懶鋪路的預兆?!)

Hope see you soon!

【Dear diary】20100419 27th Bithday

Today is by 27Th birthday, but it seems it would become one of my worst birthday in the end. It's not just because there are so much work I have to deal with and all of these must be done by today, but also because that  I had a big fight with Ryan yesterday and we even concealed our launch reservation, which had been planned for two weeks, for it. Hope everything come out in a good way!

【Dear diary】20100414 quick note

I have been too busy to keep my diary so I decided quick note would be a good idea. Here is the Quick note about work and life on 0414

1. It's so hard for the people who work in advertising agency or PR agency to get a good balance between life and work. There won't be a perfect balance and all we can do is make choices.
2. Bought the MISTBORN 2 yesterday, and very excited about reading it. I really hope that I can write an article about this book which I really love recently and definitely on Top 3 of my favorite books in 2010
3. Had dinner with OS in Solo Pasta which is very popular in Taipei recently by TVC promotion. It let us down a little bit for its quantity which is big enough for us, but it tasted good anyway. 
4. Heard of some news from ex-company before having dinner, and those news made me feel down.  These news  is about my ex-boss promote two ex-colleagues and the working experience of one of them is less than me pretty far. I can't stop wondering promoting not just about abilities and experience also about timing and luck even though OS had told me that you and your colleagues will suffer a lot if your abilities doesn't equal to your position.
5. Recently I found that I want to break up with Ryan, and I told him last night. I cried a lot when talking about this, so my eyes looked very puffy this morning. Though everything seems OK like nothing happened last night, I still think this would become a bump in the future soon or later.

What a day!

【Dear diary】20100310

About Work

Today is a big day for me because I will do the presentation for first time in front of my new client! Of course it's a good opportunity for me to practice my presentation skills but I just can't stop feeling nervous. I hope I will do it well so please cross your finger for me.

My director will take three months and back to work on 7/1. It seems a good news to me because I am so scared that I won't have a person to relay or ask in the future. It also means that I have to do all the work independently in next three months and I decide to think in this way which I get a great chance to build up the relationship and reputation in this company. Even this positive thinking can't stop my nervousness and, so please give me the courage to face every difficulty and challenge in the future. ( this part kind of turn out to a prayer)

【Dear diary】20100303

*Life*

Working really stops me from doing the things which I used to do during last seven months, such as swimming, reading English novels, or even yoga. I hate this kind of situation because these stuffs really make me happier and more confident that I was before I started to do it. To change the whole situation, I've already booked my next yoga class which is on Saturday. If I am OK with the new teacher, I will continue my weekly yoga practice but from Wednesday night to Saturday evening. About swimming and reading English novels, I am still figuring what I can do. Please cross your finger for me.

*New Job*

It seems that my managers are worried about that I am not used to my new working life. The truth is NO but I am trying my best to keep up all the works. I hope I can show them that I can do it well. Wish me good luck.

【Dear Diary】20100301 First day

It's my first day back to work after 7-month resting. I really tried my best to keep up with my team members and colleagues, and I hope I will do every thing OK.

According the saying of my Japan general manager, the difficulty means that you are working something because if you don't do anything, there isn't any challenge. Don't feel so bad about the difficulty or challenge because they are the proof of your hard working.

【Dear Diary】20100214

Today is the first day of Luna calendar, and we went to temples to ask for the protection from the god and goddess for the whole year. This is a traditional custom in Taiwan, so there are lots of people in temples, especially that temple we went. It was very crowded that you cannot even put your tribute on the table and might be very careful to the joss sticks held by others.

Evey year, I have tried to ask the joss to give me some luck to help me go through the year well, and the wishes for this year were being loved by my new bosses and colleagues and doing everything well in the new position, improving my swimming and yoga skills to make my body healthy and slimmer, and keeping a good relationship with Ryan. When making the wishes of year, I would also ask the josses to do the same to my family, my boyfriend and his family, relatives, and all my friends because I believe that only your family, relatives and friends happy can bring true happiness to you.


After that, we went to the YueMei Tai-Sugar factory which was transformed to a sightseeing factory to show tourists how they made sugar and the big machines to make sugar. Unfortunately, it turned to be a place to sell some off season clothes, products produced by Tai-Sugar or some Chinese appetizers but not a place to introduce the history and process of making sugar. Anyway, I still tried the ice stick whose taste was salty egg yolk and walnuts to recollect the pleasant favor of my childhood, but it didn't taste the same anymore.

We had a lovely lunch at a special restaurant which is also a sax showroom, and I think it's a good place to go if you go to HowLi. After lunch, we had a little walk around HowLi Horse Farm, but we didn't go in the farm because of the price of ticket and tiredness.


It's Valentines' day, may everyone can have a good relationship with your loved one.

【Dear Diary】20100212 - I have a job after searching for 7 months

Finally, I accept a job today, and It is Account Supervisor in an advertising company AGAIN. I will have second interview with the general manager for final approval even thought it's kind of routine for this company. I still hope I can do the interview well so I guess I need to do some preparation during this Chinese New Year holidays.

Actually, I did hesitate about this position, and the biggest reasons are that I did promised my ex-boss that I won't work in ad agency for my next job and I am still afraid that I cannot handle the high pressure and long hour working style. So at the beginning of looking for a job, I totally turned down every opportunity offered by Ad agency. So what makes me change my mind to accept this position is one of my ex-colleague said " did you put the mark of I do not want to work for Ad agency anymore on you forehead?".  IT IS SO TURE. This is my life and nobody can be responsible for it except me. I do not need to reject a good chance to keep a promise. Somehow, I still feel pretty embarrassed to my ex-boss.


Tomorrow will be the start of Chinese New Year holidays, and I am going to enjoy. It's also time to do the thorough clean-up for CNY.

【Dear Diary】20100130

Today, I felt that I am a totally changed person. As you know, I am finding a job, but I didn't do very well on sending resumes because I limited myself in many perspectives, such as job title, content, if I am totally matched the conditions or not. I suddenly thought these ideas are so stupid because there isn't a job can find a perfect match. There must be something both employer and employee will compromise, and the only difference between them is how much they will compromise. Because of this thought, I finally try some different job to apply, and I will try some more in the next few days.

I really hope that I can find a job before Chinese New Year, and start to to work in March at least.

By the way, I start to clean the room I stay in Taipei for the Chinese New Year, and I now I not just feel changed but also refreshing :D.

【Dear Diary】20100129

Tom Hands was so young and thin to recognize!

Few days ago, I saw the movie, Philadelphia, whose leading actors are Tom Hanks and Denzel Washington, which is about a homosexual layer with AIDS, Andrew Beckett, got fire by his firm, so Andrew and his attorney, Joe Miller,sued his firm to fight for this working right. The background is in 90s and people at that time believed that the homosexuals were the carriers of AIDS and were also very conservative about homosexual. So this background made Andrew and Joe had lots of difficulties to fight with the strong and conservative firm and society in and off the court.

Actually I just saw the later half part of the movie, which is about cross-examining on the court. You can see the director is trying so hare to let people know that how conservative and stubborn people were, no matter the owner or bosses of the firm or the people in the society or even Joe himself. This part reminds that if I am a conservative and stubborn person as they of the movie. I ain't just talking about the issue of homosexual or AIDS, there are lot more issues which may not be acceptable for most of people at this time, but there issues might be more acceptable after ten or twenty years. Just like homosexual was not acceptable thirty years ago, now more and more people try to accept , understand or even approve this group.

I am writing this not to discuss the changing of society, because I am not a social scientist. I just want to remind myself that always be open minded about new things which may not be easy understand now, but try hard and be in their shoes which will help me to accept more in somehow.

By the way the movie is really good, so next time I will finish the movie from beginning to end.

【Dear Diary】20100124-2

Ryan and I went to Takashi Murakami 's exhibition, I Love Print, So I made them, this afternoon. Takashi is a very creative artist, and he try to use some cute or interesting characters, such as KaiKai and Kiki, to show his ideas of art. Before seeing this show, I thought him as a successful artist who can also manages business very well. After seeing his works and some footage of his working process of his famous works, I finally found that he is not just creative but also very good at execution with attention to details, which make he a very successful artist who can earns lots of money. It's not just his luck, is his work to make him achieve his goal.

After the show, we went to the Shilin night market. We try to have the food which has many people line up for, and I even felt sick on the way home. We tried about 5 different food and 3 kinds of drink, and all of them were pretty delicious. I will put some pictures to show what we had this evening.


Yesterday, I successfully booked the tickets for CNY holidays, and I also found that one of my friend, I don't know if she see me as a friend anymore, couldn't access the web at all. I left her a private message on plurk to tell her that I can help her to book her tickets, and I didn't go to bed until 2am. She didn't say a word even a thank you. I am pretty disappointed about her, even though I told myself that do not expect too much on her when I left the message. Maybe I am just too ardent, I still think that she should let me know if she need my help or not. Anyway, I just lose another friend, or maybe I had already lost her for very long time. I hope I can get rid of this very soon!

【Dear Diary】20100124

AMAZING!

I just booked the THSR tickets for the Chinese New Year holiday. It's an impossible mission to book tickets successfully in 15 minutes, but I just did it. Maybe it's a miracle, or my luck. Anyway, I hope that I can have this luck during the whole 2010. I also wish all my friends can book their tickets as quick as I did.

Ryan and I will go to 2 exhibitions tomorrow, so it's time to bed.

【Dear Diary】20100122

◎Movie - Hoodwinked ◎

In today's English class, the teacher let us finish the movie - Hoodwinked to show us what narration is. It's an adaptation whose idea is from ' Rad Riding Hood' basically, but the whole content is totally different from the original one.

It's about the girl in a rad hood, whose granny is a good maker, and she is her granny's deliverer in the forest. There is something strange happened in the forest. The every store which sells sweet goods in forest were lost their receipts which were stolen by some secret bandit, and these stores were closed because of losing their receipts. Rad hood were very worried about granny's receipt, and she want to bring the receipt to granny's house. When she arrived the house she found that a big wolf is pretending her granny and her granny was tided by lots of ropes. When she tried to beat the big wolf, a woodman burs ted into the house with an ax.  Then, Here came the policemen, and a private detective - Mr. Flipper, who is a frog. They try to figure out what happened, and they also believe that the suspect of the bandit is among these four people.

Maybe you would think this opening is a little bite familiar, and it turns out a totally different story. There are a lot of funny adaptations from many famous fairy tales, such as The Three Little Pigs, Mission Impossible...etc. Although I had seen this movie before, I enjoyed it more than last time because of the English subtitle to help me to find out more interesting dialogues and lyrics which is exclusives for the plots.

【Dear Diary】20100119

This is the new hairstyle for my resume and interview! (please ignore the background)

Anyway, hope it can bring some good luck to me! it's so terrible to have so many me in one page. Actually this new hair cut not only for the coming interview but also for the picture which will put in my resume. According some " expert" of human resource, a professional pic will make your resume more reliable. What's so-called professional picture is have a clear background and show your energy with a "right" look. Since I haven't cut my hair over six months, I don't think I can deliver a perfect image on my pic for resume with my long but messy hair. That's the reason for having this new hairstyle.

The sky of tonight fulls lots of stars and looks beautiful and peaceful. Dear Diary, I think this is a good sign for me to find a job.

【Dear Diary】20100114

some pics taken on 20100114

 
Today, Ryan had one day off, so we went to two museum for Cai Guo-Qiang's exhibition, Hanging Out in The Museum, and MOCA Taipei. Actually, we also planned to go to a movie - KJ ( "音樂人生" in Chinese),which is a documentary won the most awards in the history of Golden Horse, and those who have already seen the movie all said that this is the best documentary of recent years, including Best Documentary, Best . Just before our turn of buying tickets, all the ticket of only one play of today was booked by someone secretly. Ryan was pretty upset about it, but what can we do?! ha, so we decided just forget about it and pray that this movie will have DVD soon even though there will be a very small chance.

  The shows are both interesting and I really enjoyed all the art works. One of the most impressed is Hitting The Wall of Cia Guo-Qiang. There are 99 wolfs in that work, and most of them are running so hard to one direction, and there is a glass on their way. Some of the wolfs are felling to the ground after they hit the glass wall, but the rest of them are still running in the wall in lines. There is a metaphor in it, and that is people usually follow the order of idea from the biggest group blindly even though there will be a trap or danger behind it. Then I realize that how artists try to use art to say some thing with a totally different way which is much more powerful and unforgettable.


  This morning, I got one call from Inky when I still slept, and she told me that her boss wants to interview me. I was pretty surprised because she just told me that her boss want to find someone more senior than I am yesterday. I was also getting nervous for having interview. Even though at first I just take this position as another chance, I still got very very very nervous. I guess the reason I got nervous isn't only the interview also no reply for these six months. Some people told that must be too many people are looking for a job at the same time or I am looking for a job which is not directly relevant to my previous experience. I hope what they tell me is true, and no matter what the truth is, I will do my best for every interview. You will never know where life can take you to!

【Dear Diary】20100111

I haven't updated my diary for couple days. I think it's really hard to keep writing diary everyday, especially when you don't have a job. I don't have much to share or need to keep record when these days, the only thing I feel lot is when I read my English recommended books from Frances, who is my English writing teacher for these few months. I just finished last Saturday, and I really felt something about it.

◎ Charlotte's Web◎

Everyone wants a royal friend, but I think I want a friend who is like Charlotte in the book, Charlotte's Web. The story is about the friendship between Charlotte and Wilber. Charlotte is big gray spider, and Wilber is a pig. They both lived in the same barn and they became good friends. One day Wilber find that he will be killed by the owner of the farm, and Charlotte promised that she would figure out some way to save his life. I won't tell you the end of the story here, because I would ruin your appetite of reading this book.

I am very touched by the firm friendship and royalty of Charlotte and Wilber, especially Charlotte is try her best to save her good friend, even though she might lose her life. I truly believe that a good friendship will make your life totally different, so when anyone of my friend needs my help, I would do my best to help. Although sometimes we don't really pay back for what we already gave, it shouldn't be a big deal if we really see them as our good friend. Even though they aren't, you would lose anything to help someone need a hand. I used to care about what I could get from those whom I have helped or devoted, and most of time I didn't think that I balance what I earn with what I give. I was not very upset about this unbalance, and angry with those whom I had helped. After reading Charlotte's Web, I finally know that there isn't a scale to measure friendship or help to your friends, because what you give sincerely will make others really understand your true heart that dose matter after all. Now I think I will help other or my friends with a sincerer heart.